Heya guys,

Well, here I am, in my room, with little eyes wich are tired of reading line after line, trying to memorise every phrase and word. Yes, the testweek has begun again... *joy-_-''* Anyway, today I had Geography and English. I suppose I've passed them.
So, I sat there in the classroom, finished with my test and I look straight ahead, and what do I see? The girl that sat in front of me was picking her nose, no no, not picking she was sticking her entire finger up there!!! And then, when she was finished, she examened it more closely, it's shape, size, coulor and I don't know what else, she was entriqued by it. And then... she ate it, and I almost screamed. It was so disgusting, and the worst part was her face, she actually enjoyed it. She sat there with closed eyes, moving her jaw, you could see her tounge pressing against her cheek in search of the free dinner take away she just picked out of her nose.

Thought I'd share that with you :P
So, I'm learning yes, hard to imagine isn't it. Worst thing is, I can't focus...
Yeah, here come the problems again.
Why can't I focus? Because I figured something out. In the last post I wrote I said that something was the matter but I couldn't figure out what. Well, I THINK I know... And I think it is that I miss my ex alot... I just miss to speak with her and, just laugh with her and be around her. And, I'm jealous, I thought that I was over her, but I'm not, and I still can't stand the fact that she kisses somebody else now. God I sound like a stalker... But seriously, I just miss her being a part of my life, it feels like... she's too busy with the other girl... wich is logical ofcourse! And she didn't forget about me because she called me last night *something I should've done erlier...* I just miss the rides on her bike, the places we used to go, or just lie in her bed watching films... And it feels like the only way I can get rid of this feeling, is to look for somebody else.

Question is: If I find somebody else, will I start a relationship with them just for the replacement, or for the fact that I really like her, and want to be with her. I need to sort out my life.
Sometimes I wish I was 10 years older. And just have a job, a house and a nice girlfriend and wouldn't have to worry about anything else and just grow old with her...

Kay, It's getting way to depressive now
Oh en P.S. I've got a date on tuesday so I'll let you know how things went.

See ya next time!